I have wanted to know the future. I thought that it would provide some safety and stability.

But today I am wondering… if I were to know the future, wouldn’t I then be the prisoner of it? I would live keeping that known future in mind while at the same time, without knowing it, attaching to it, I could be open to any future. Also, living with some type of future in mind is, at the end of the day, living in an illusion of something that may not end up happening at all… I doubt that anything in life is promised. So thinking that we can or do know the future is already an illusion in itself. I think that realizing that absolutely nobody can know the future provides so much more safety than thinking that someone might. If nobody knows, then nobody has more power than me. I am safe…I am free.

Maybe knowing the future is more like knowing what to do next based on what is happening now. Knowing the next step. But to really know the next step, I suppose, one has to be here and not caught up in the illusion. Illusion keeps you safe…but from what? What am I so afraid of? Aren’t I afraid that my illusion will not come true? So, is the thing that I think that keeps me safe the very reason I am afraid in the first place?… I want to attach to something to feel safe, but the thing I am afraid of the most is that things will not go as I hope. So by attaching myself to what I think keeps me safe, I am making a trap for myself that will surely swallow me once the reality and illusion will not match. So paradoxically, I am most safe when I let go, not when I hold on.

Maybe, by letting go of wanting to know the future, we gain the possibility to know the now. And by knowing the now, we realize.. there is no future and nothing to know.