I am starting to feel more into myself. Standing is not foreign and uncomfortable, but it feels natural now. I am growing. I am a tree that grows its willpower by standing on its own. Whatever happens, still standing. Each moment I let go serves as a building material for the willpower tree I grow.

As long as I look for something, my creative expression reflects it.

What will my expression reflect when I stop looking for answers?

Maybe the search makes me more complicated and furthers me from what I am. Because when I am constant, then I cannot be the search.

What happens when I move more and more into the attitude of doing something because I enjoy doing it? Doing it because it feels good? I realize that the good feeling is already what I am looking for. By doing things because I enjoy them, I can start seeing my authentic reflection within them. When I begin to chase, I should ask myself, what am I running after? What is it that I don’t have here and now?

The more I search, the more I hide. Each time I think I’ve found myself, poof, like magic, I’m gone again.

What do I see when I look at my reflection while simultaneously wanting nothing?

Dog chasing its tail

I look at the dog and point

ha-ha!

look,

the dog has lost his brain

yet look at me

I am the same

while laughing at the dog

I laugh at myself

and while I laugh

I lose my mind

I am the laugh

now I ride

high

nice to meet me

HI!

So..if I am what I search out to find?

How am I money?