Basic stance with breathing and movements, 25 min

From this page onwards, I will mark the words that I feel were communicated by my higher self as HS.

I thought that maybe when I keep destroying, things at some point fall into place

but it does not seem to be the case

perhaps I mixed up letting go and destroying…what is the difference anyway?

destruction makes me tired, but letting go makes me light

if I destroy, I just grow as a destroyer

nothing else grows

but if I let go, things fall into place

not into pieces.

To know it, I had to experience it

only love can build harmoniously

then things that must be let go

can easily find their next home, will fall into their next home

H: I realized that when I create with joy, nothing is scary but funny. That the more frightening a face is, the funnier it is. Seriousness is just so funny from higher perspectives.

HS: Look for joy, and you find yourself, your power.

H: I realize that even if everything becomes one, I have a place somewhere, my spot, that is only for me. I am less scared now about disappearing into nothing. I realize I am something

I remember all those times I have said, “If I should ever die, I hope I die because of laughing. This girl died of laughter.” It has been kind of like a joke, but not really. As we know, there is some truth to every joke anyway.

I realize now how profound it is that there is doubt over dying at all and how I have recognized myself in the act of laughing. I remember that one of the best moments of my life was sitting in a movie theatre looking at a movie where I was the main character (documentary), and how there was constant laughter and how I just kept thinking to myself that those moments when we all laugh together at something I am doing on screen feel like home in the most profound way I have ever felt. I feel like my soul’s at home. To have done something that makes people laugh and lifts their spirits is when I feel the most value in myself and when I most enjoy myself. Laughter makes me free, destroys all fear, and makes it funny. It is so powerful.

If I create with joy

I can never destroy

HS: Look for joy, and you are I AM

I am not nothing

I AM

Maybe I can work together with the energies in a way that I can write directions on the paper?